Second post for the day when I don't even know why I should be blogging now . Errr well , just expressing all sorts of different feelings down here . Why not , right ? Hmm . I don't wanna get all tensed up , emotional like some girls out there . *I'm hinting on you , alright ? I'm not surprised gettin' to know that I'd lost 4 kg which makes me 41 kg now but what the hell ? My weight is sucha bitch but still , I'm lovin' it . :)My smile was my make up today although my closest ones knows that I was faking it . I'm sorry people . I know , I'm the one making the decisions . I know how hurtful it felts for the other party but I have to think about myself too . I mean like , I've got feelings and I don't wanna do something for the sake of someone who pulls me down most of the time . I have to let this go . I have to let this all out . I have my own way of living .
Cause all we ever did was fight .
We were so disfunctional .
Now I've forgotten all the times ,
And all the days that I was lovin' you .
I've already closed that door ,
I don't want to be in the pain I felt before .
So now , I can be myself ,
Without your approval at all .
So yes , I had enough of people controlling my life . I don't wish to repeat any mistakes . I shall take this as a lesson learned and most probably learned from my wrong doings . Na'uh , I'm not gonna neglect you cos' I remembered tellin' you that it's still gonna be the 5 of us so yes , at any point of time , you may just wanna beep my cell cos' y'know I love you guys a lot so I really don't mind spending my time for you guys now . I love you , my people .
I really hope you respect my decisions like you did told me before . Love me , leave me .
